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07.02 First day of SAT courses.
07.05 Driving lessons start! 08.23 Trip to Canada! |
Why do I get a teary eye everytime I hear your voice?
It’s like my entire fate has been handed to it.
Everytime I get a taste of it, I’m scared.
Every day, every night, I think of you.
But I also think of how little I think of you, and how much I think of useless beings.
Why am I so attached to the past?
Why do I think that’s the only way for me to reach happiness?
I’m sad.
I don’t know why.
Maybe it’s because I miss someone deeply, or the fact that I let that person down, or even the thought of having hurt someone who genuinely cares about me.
I’m lost.
I really don’t know why.
Maybe it’s because I wonder why I push away whoever cares about me and waste my time with others who would never bother to do so.
But I’m happy.
Yet I still don’t know why.
Maybe that’s why I’m so sad.
Because being happy with no reason is never a good enough choice for me.
Maybe I should stop asking why. Maybe then, just maybe might I taste liberty from frustrating thoughts.